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I am back

I am back to the library after a short break—eating a sandwich, drinking some hot chocolate, and looking the undergraduate students gathering, laughing, arguing—to cheer up. But I am still not happy. Not happy (and strong) enough to concentrate on my studying. I can see that I am completely fragile and going to break down by a breeze…

Yes: I know it is not easy to study some theoretical course abroad, in a language that I could not express myself explicitly; I know I am getting use to study hard; I know I am here to learn as much as I can and I should not lose my track; I know; I know; but still do not have good feelings, do not have self confidence… I am not the one I used to be: why I have become so much unsocial here in London?

Summer

A rice field, Rasht, Iran.
[photo by: Parastoo Dokouhaki | July 2009]